Come school..as usual arnd 1030..but it only my practical test..than.. finish withing 10 min than im done so...i have to wait 3 hrs...than my lunch..hah!! so lunch time..was rainning heavily...so heavy i could nt see the expressway.....it was totally cover by the rain ans it was flooded...!! nt that really bad flood...but it kinda...flood....so...lucky i had a umbrealla so yah..reach to the the bus..than as usual drop to Harbourfront..YAH I KNOW..IT BORED...IT HAVE TO BARED WITH IT FOR 1 WEEK..!!! so in the train this bunch of Matrep run into the train ..n guess..wad...!!??? i was lucky that my fren was with me..so there this..say this.."MATAIR EH MATAAIR EH" so i don like...at them or pretend nt to hear...they start to change sit..so yah wadeve..than my fren drop off at serangoon this part it interesting..!! They come towards me n ask me
MAT:..is he my bf..
i say " he my bestfrens"
he shouted " kawan dok" (so i stare towards him)...he let out his phone..but he did nt realise that his phone has a girl pic..
i say " is that ur gurl",
he says" alamak...kacau sia pic ni...alamak..ni bkn...I NYER phone ni my adek nyer phone..my phone rosak.."
i say" yelah tu.." finally i reach my destination than on my way up they say " BYE girl bye girl"
wad the fuck..
Today in school was my worst question day..bcos my teacher ask me about my health ...i mean it Cardiac Arrest...so my teacher was asking how was it..how im goin thru with it..i was like bump...my head feel like it been hit by a rock..!! lately i kinda of nt thinking about my health all i want was fun..to enjoy..an just than the question strike back...well it been 2 days i've been thinking about it since the interview happened...seriously i really don want to talk about it in front of my fren..but yah she ask than im force to say..i was embarrass bcos..both are my fren are outdoor people..than me...I HAVE TO STAY AT HOME...NT TO MUCH OF SUN...NT MUCH OF RUNNING...NT FUN OF...SPORTS..IM FORCING MYSELF TO STOP ALL THIS..SO I COULD BREATH AGAIN...!! im blum now...n i wish ...I WAS NORMAL...having fever is normal..but to have what i have n go thru all the shit i've been thru...it nt something you wan tot remember...the rest of ur life....n yes u have been saved by a group of doctor...but when people..look at you..they just feel pity n worries..about...! at some point i don understand...i don understand to understand their feeling Or Im being TOO EMOTIONALLLLL....
I HATE WHEN PEOPLE ASK ABOUT MY ILLNESS..IT NT FUN TO TALK IT JUST ME TEARY..UP..!! I DON WANT TO GO THRU ALL THAT AGAIN LOSING MY MUM...N THINKING MY U AND BRO...TO TELL THE STORY ..WAS EVEN HARDER...IM SO BUMP...I FEEL HOPELESS..WHEN SHE SAY..IM NT SURE..IF I WANT TO PUT U IN Tan Tock Seng....i feel so hopeless


